April 10, 2010 my whole world fell apart...

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The Proposition Volume 2 by H.M Ward

My version of the `Duck`scene…

So, Lisa Renee Jones has just released the 2nd installment of Infinite possibilities - http://store.kobobooks.com/en-CA/ebook/infinite-possibilities-2 - the first being Escaping Reality - http://store.kobobooks.com/en-CA/ebook/escaping-reality

Lisa became one of my more favourite authors this past year actually. Funny story to this. The first book I read was - Rebecca`s Lost Journals 1 - the seduction http://store.kobobooks.com/en-CA/ebook/rebecca-s-lost-journals-volume-1-the-seduction   Here`s my Review (https://www.goodreads.com/review/show/597245778)!!! So I read most, if not all of Rebecca’s journals and I was so dam lost and pissed off. I was like, what the hell is wrong with this author writing this. Who the hell is Rebecca and why do I give a shit about her journals… LMAO, (now) but at the time I thought this author is bonkers!!!! Nope, I finally did some digging into THIS, Lisa Renee Jones (ha) and found out I WAS the bonkers one! I wanted to write her a nice long letter telling her how wacko she was for writing something that had NO context except for, well… I won`t spoil that for You! That would have been REALLY embarrassing had I done that… Come to find out yep, I read the journals alright but I actually hadn’t read Sara’s story where her friend finds the journals and Sara starts reading them, and well You totally have to read that series to know what I`m talking about here…

So, needless to say, I figured it all out and NOW I’m hooked and Chris Merit is like, totally (Valley girl here) THE best boyfriend in the frigging world!!! Yup this girls hooked… Here is MY Chris Merit…

HOT, RIGHT

Now onto the latest series. Well it`s just as good. Everything that Lisa writes is well in a word Fricking Awesome (OK 2 words)!!! You have the links NOW so no need to say I didn’t provide you with them. Okay and I`ll even be nice and provide you Kindle folks with the Amazon links…

Get reading AND shopping! Okay, this is done you can stop reading now. Oh yeah, crap, you`re waiting for those links. Well here You go!!!!

http://www.amazon.com/Lisa-Renee-Jones/e/B001ITXMWU/ref=ntt_athr_dp_pel_1 - this is her profile You can buy ALL of her books, e-version or paperback

http://www.amazon.ca/s?_encoding=UTF8&field-author=Lisa%20Renee%20Jones&search-alias=digital-text - for You Canadians like this Gal!!!

http://store.kobobooks.com/en-CA/Search?query=Lisa%20Renee%20Jones&fcsearchfield=Author - Here`s ALL of her books in kobo too.

Okay, now You can stop reading… Enjoy!

…Oh wait, don`t stop yet - don`t forget to review and to visit Lisa on Facebook. She`s so amazing and interactive with her fans! Drop on by…  https://www.facebook.com/AuthorLisaReneeJones?ref=br_tf   While you`re there - congratulate her on her recent Marriage!!! Happy Reading Friends!!!

The Arrangement Series by H. M Ward&#8230; Have you read it yet?
The series is about a young girl, Avery who has lost everything and is struggling to keep her head a float. She has a beat up vehicle that has been stolen more times then she can count&#8230; The last time her car was stolen, while running down the road chasing after the thief; she meets up with the most handsome man she&#8217;s ever seen&#8230; The electricity is sending lightning boltz like you wouldn&#8217;t believe&#8230;
Her best female friend offers her a job she can&#8217;t resist especially since she is going to be working under none other then her handsome savour. Rich and Sexy, but Dangerous Sean&#8230;  Avery&#8217;s life forever changes&#8230;
Want to read more? Well, you have to buy the books&#8230; Here&#8217;s where&#8230;
Firstly if you want to know when the exact dates of the volumes will be released&#8230; Sign up by texting AWESOMEBOOKS to 22828&#160;you will get all the information on all of H. M Wards book releases or you can visit her at;
http://www.facebook.com/AuthorHMWard#!/AuthorHMWard
http://www.yaparanormalromance.com/
https://twitter.com/hmward
For purchasing the books;
http://www.yaparanormalromance.com/books.htm Scroll down to the Arrangement and you can click on the links for Kindle, Nook or Kobo
OR see
http://www.goodreads.com/series/95557-the-arrangement  click on the volume and you can purchase from there.
I&#8217;d love to hear your comments and reviews&#8230; I hope you enjoy it as much as I do&#8230; Volume 4 of this series will be out this WEEKEND!!! Stay tuned for that review next week!!!!?

The Arrangement Series by H. M Ward… Have you read it yet?

The series is about a young girl, Avery who has lost everything and is struggling to keep her head a float. She has a beat up vehicle that has been stolen more times then she can count… The last time her car was stolen, while running down the road chasing after the thief; she meets up with the most handsome man she’s ever seen… The electricity is sending lightning boltz like you wouldn’t believe…

Her best female friend offers her a job she can’t resist especially since she is going to be working under none other then her handsome savour. Rich and Sexy, but Dangerous Sean…  Avery’s life forever changes…

Want to read more? Well, you have to buy the books… Here’s where…

Firstly if you want to know when the exact dates of the volumes will be released… Sign up by texting AWESOMEBOOKS to 22828 you will get all the information on all of H. M Wards book releases or you can visit her at;

http://www.facebook.com/AuthorHMWard#!/AuthorHMWard

http://www.yaparanormalromance.com/

https://twitter.com/hmward

For purchasing the books;

http://www.yaparanormalromance.com/books.htm Scroll down to the Arrangement and you can click on the links for Kindle, Nook or Kobo

OR see

http://www.goodreads.com/series/95557-the-arrangement  click on the volume and you can purchase from there.

I’d love to hear your comments and reviews… I hope you enjoy it as much as I do… Volume 4 of this series will be out this WEEKEND!!! Stay tuned for that review next week!!!!?

Missed me since July? Read about it… Canadian Breast Cancer Foundation Run for the Cure too!!!

Well quite a lot has happened since then.  I have had the same Migraine for the past 44 days - yes, that’s what I said!!! I’ve gotten little relief either!  But there has been a lot of progress made so far!

  • First, I’ve been to see a dietician and even though I’ve lost no weight, I’ve gained none either. A real life lesson about eating that’s for sure!  Very LOW tyramine diet as well. I’m trying a lot of new foods. Almonds from Costco are my new go to snack… Where before it was chocolate, ice cream, and other junk food like that!  I choose fresh fruit now, or the almonds.  It’s EXTREMELY HARD though.  After 37 years of NOT eating right I’ve developed a lot of bad habits. I can’t remember the last time I had fast food! BONUS for my body and my pocket book!!!
  • Secondly, I’ve been to see a Sleep Specialist. I had a sleep study done. I slept a total of 6 hours and 3 minutes. It was amazingly restful there. I wasn’t too tired when I got there but the bed was like sleeping in a big fluffy cloud.  I had the best sleep I’ve had in forever there.  Results were that I have a very low level of Sleep Apnea. However, I’ve been told that for the whole amount of time I sleep, I snored all but 40 minutes broken up… They class me as a Champion Male snorer! LOL  I go back on the 16th (this Sunday) and they test what levels I need for my CPAP machine that I have to purchase the day afterwards…

    What is a CPAP machine?

Here are some images of what I have to get…

http://cdn.cloudfiles.mosso.com/c6771/resmed-swift-fx-nasal-pillow-cpap-mask-profile.jpg OR http://www.cpapwholesale.com/images/CPAP_Masks/Infinity.jpg  These are the types of masks they’re going to try me on because I breath with my nose, not really my mouth…  http://www.flickr.com/photos/44356082@N08/4146370779/  This is the machine I get. It’s so tiny yet extremely COSTLY!!! Fortunately in Ontario (Canada) we have an amazing Health Insurance Program (OHIP)! This machine retails for $1200 (YES, that’s what I said!!) BUT OHIP pay 67% of the cost ($800) and since I have my own drug plan through work they pay 80% (after the $800 deduction) so they will pay $320 of the remaining $400, so for a $1200 machine my out of pocket expense should only be $80!!!  Although I do have to pay it up front I will be re-imbursed for my costs! :) :)

I remember years ago my Uncle Oliver had sleep apnea and his machine was gigantic and his mask covered his whole entire face - it was very noisy too.  Apparently, this one makes (virtually) any noise so that great! Here is an article on what a CPAP really is and it’s function…  http://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorders/sleep-apnea/continuous-positive-airway-pressure-cpap-for-obstructive-sleep-apnea  This article also explains what Sleep Apnea is too…

  • Thirdly, I’ve been having a bit more energy to at least clean my house, and do laundry… That’s a nice change. 
  • Lastly, my sensitivity to smell is mostly gone, so that’s great!  I still do have small reactions here and there but that’s about it… Although my left eye still twitches like crazy! Will be nice when and if that stops! I was also seen by another doctor out of town with suggestions and referrals of places I can go to get help! So that’s good!!!!

Well, I guess I’m going to end this article on a positive note! I’m still alive and on September 30th our local Run for the Cure takes place to raise funds for Breast Cancer research.  Should you or anyone you know be interested in supporting my team here is the link….  http://www.runforthecure.com/site/TR/RunForTheCureFY13/Ontario?team_id=43162&pg=team&fr_id=1435

     As you know my Sister Sandy passed away on April 10th of 2010 - had there been a cure for breast cancer she never would have needed Chemo and never developed Leukemia from it - we’d still have our Sandy.  Please should you decide to donate sponsor one of Sandy’s girls (Sasha or Serena Friesen). You could also read everyones’ lovely stories of our Sandy!  The most beautiful and caring person I ever knew in my whole life! Sure do miss her!  Our team is in 3rd place for Fundraising - hopefully with your help and donation (“even $1 is enough, as a cure starts 1 penny at a time!” MCD(c)) we will find a cure sooner then later! For the sake of all Mothers, Daughter, Sisters, Nieces, and friends…especially mine!

 

Check In…

Boy, it feels like forever since I’ve just typed anything…  What to say???

I guess to start with, my neurologist recommended that I start these pills 3 times a day - they’re called Indomethacin (heaven in a bottle)! The second day after starting them, I was having a terrible migraine. After the 5th pill, the migraine was GONE!!! Man, and it was gone for 5 whole days! The next one was only a day and a half!  I have been moving forward. I’m back to work (part time) and I have been spending a bit more time with my family too, especially my God daugter.

My brother is home from out west - what can I say about that!? I’ve missed him so much, and as soon as he gets here he treats me like shit and is so rude to me. I don’t get it, apparently he HATES me!  Breaks my heart - I have no one that I’m close with anymore since Sandy has been gone! He was the one I was close with too.  Now, I feel so alone! :’(  

It will be nice to be back to work full time, but, really no-one likes me there either!  Life…what a fucking mess! I wish some days I was a drug addict still, I had tons of friends, and was so busy! I wasn’t bogged down with these migraines! I had money, friends and a life. Now I have nobody…  I wish my life was different.

Well, as I sit here crying I guess I found what I needed to say!  I’m a blanket of mixed emotions!  Too think I have another 40 or so years of this hell of a life!?!  Fuck, kill me now - please….

Migraine from another world!

Have had a migraine all day from another world! BUT, I did go outside for a short time today and expose my photophobia (light sensitivity) to the warmth of the sun, as it shawn brightly!!!  It was lovely, the temperature was hot…I’m paying for it now though because I also opened the large picture window for the cats to sit in. Except Sox, and Woobies - they went outside too.  Sox for about 3 hours, Woobies about 20 minutes. I was only 2 minutes and came back in.

Outside of my window is a lilac bush, and a lot of other trees that have scents to them. My upper lip has been burning but I’ve tried very hard to ignore it!  I watched Young and Restless, and did jewellery making today too!  I’m starting to force myself to do things. I really want to be back on a normal routine so that I can get back to work!  My migraine was so bad this morning…

My mom’s housecleaning gave me a call and told me two things that she found out for me about helping my migraines.  Apparently, Advil has made another pill that’s under their envelope that is only available in the states right now and it’s specifically for migraines.  She learned this from the Director of the Pain Management Clinic at the KGH! She gave me the information of the lady and I will talk to my doctor about going to see them so that I can at least get something.

Motrin is not working but I had a lovely chat with my pharmacist who said that I have a prescription for generic Advil - 600 mgs.  So I’ve asked her to fill it and will seek out advise from my doctor about the dose I’m allowed to take of them.

My Shoppers Drug Mart pharmacy owned by Adam Doyle in Kingston at 1201 Division Street is absolutely amazing. So if you’re ever travelling in the Kingston Area and need a pharmacy you should really stop by it. It’s off the 401 exit is Division Street. As soon as you come off head south to the first stop sign, turn left drive up a second and you can’t miss it - it’s on the right hand side…  They are so amazing there - I just LOVE them!!!  Everytime I call and speak to the pharmacists there they always know who I am and they know my medical history!  Absolutely fantastic!

I like my mind set today even though I am in a bit of reaction, I’m NOT feeling negative.  I guess M’s post yesterday inspired me! Made me realize that I do have a lot of wonderful qualities and just because I suffer from migraines doesn’t mean my LIFE has to suffer too.  I’ve been letting it rule my life for so long, I forgot about ME!  Not anymore - so thanks Emily for doing this June Migraine Challenge!

: )

Finally found the source of this video…

Accomplishment in spite of migraine

This is my first time writing about one of the migraine topics but since my posts have been so negative lately I think I need to write this letter to myself to remind myself of the positives in my life too.

For starters the biggest thing I’ve done is dealing with the loss of my sister without turning to drugs like I normally would have. I have accomplished staying clean 2 years, 6 months and 2 days! I have been there support wise for my Mom in spite of excruciating migraine pain. I was able to switch careers into a completely different environment and work the best of my ability. I am able to share a loving bond and friendship with My Mom that while I was using drugs I neglected. I’ve been able to face my fears head on regarding an incident that took place during work - I am strong, confident and have been able to push through lifes complications without losing ME! I have taken on my battle with migraines by doing my own research and finding solutions and amazing people who have common symptoms and get advise from them. Mostly though, I’ve been my own advocate when no-one understood my migraines and dealt with them on my own. But most of all - I live everyday without my Sister Sandy without being a complete basket case. I’m still wonderfully kind to others even though I’ve faced a lot of other people who think that this isn’t serious! I’ve also been there for my nieces when theyve needed me. I’ve also learned to admit when I’m wrong, or need help and reached out, apologized and moved forward instead of focusing on it!

I don’t know if this sounds all that positive but it sure feels good. In fact, the migraine I’m experiencing right now seems to have lessened just a bit. I’m sure it’s pure coincidence but I’ll for now - think the latter. :)